i guess i don’t know why i act that way. it just happens to be that way. it comes naturally and i did not mean for it to happen. it is not that i am being rude anything but it came out before i could even think. maybe u could blame it on mood swings. but i am not having it now. logically when u are too tired u will just try to be quiet. but i guess i am not following the logic. but then it is not my fault. i am just ordered to be that way. maybe i am asked to be angry when i am tired or when i am agitated. but that is beyond my control. totally beyond my control. there is nothing i can do about it. it is not in my hands to change the way things are. and you just have to accept it. take it or leave it.
the incident happened yesterday. we were at the bus stop waiting for the bus. i was wearing my normal shoes and sis was wearing the slippers. so then she asked me to change shoes cause she felt weird wearing slippers. so i changed. turn out that the slippers was not in good use. so i actually wanted to change to a different shoe. when i was walking, no thunder and no lightning, i sprained my ankle just like that. everyone at the bus stop saw me!! since my ankle hurts like hell, i asked my sis to change the slippers to shoe and bring my ankle guard. i look stupid barefoot at the bus stop. and then the bus came. what could be worse than that?? and so sis came down with shoes and ankle guard. with the ankle guard on my foot, it was impossible to wear the shoes. so i had to go up and change to another pair of slippers. in the end, i had to walk on one sprained ankle all the way to jurong west. not literally, but had to take transport and walk at the same time. and because of that, my ankle is swollen!! and tomorrow is the start of a school year. how suay can i really be??